Someone to lean on.

Wow, I havent wrote since september 2010. I've been so busy since then raising two beautiful boys and making a dream come true owning my own business. Since then I've felt so blessed to meet the people I have and succeed at doing something I love to do. I didn't ever imagine I would be where I am 3 years ago. Since then a lot has happened in our lives. Nick started the journey with a new job that requires him to be gone more than half the year. While it has been challenging I know the reward at the end will be worth it. Our plans are to own land in the country (not too far in the country), build a dream house and a studio that I can only dream of right now. We're both working so hard to get there it just seems like millions of miles aways right now. Which brings me to my other reason I've decided to write again... something else that seems a million miles away... Last October, yes almost a year ago now, we made the exciting decision to start trying for #3, little did I know almost a year later I would be experiencing something I never felt possible in the realm of baby making... defeat, frustration, and sadness. Hence, the I need SOMEONE TO LEAN ON. While my husband is very supportive, he's not here, it feels like no one "really" is and it feels like no one understands completely to be in my shoes. Of course my best friend is there but still 2 hours away and with 3 kids who can blame her for not being able to be there. I miss the feeling of being able to drive across town or walk next door. I feel like I need that in my life right now but there's no one there.