September 19th, 2013

As per my appointment On Monday I had an ultrasound and dye test done today (Of course no results yet) But the tech immediately asked me if I had a follow up appointment, scare me much???? I was prying for answers but she either couldn't say anything or didn't want to break any bad news to me. I just have a sinking feeling that something is wrong, rather it be something with the tumor or something new but I just keep thinking "what if she found a baby in there". And other than having that feeling again of the unknown and some abdominal pain I feel better emotionally today. At least I don't have the feeling like I might break down again any second. I had a good talk with Nick on FaceTime, he knows how to make me feel better and look at the big picture "Sooner or later there will be a baby" Whether it's through IVF or adoption. I hope it doesn't come to that but to know he's supportive in whatever it takes makes me love him more.