R.I.P. Baby Bentley

This morning about 9 o'clock three days after I got my Positive HPT, I was in severe pain and rushed to the fertility clinic for a scan. When they started the scan nothing was seen much but HUGE cyst and oversized ovaries and a little fluid (thought to be blood) which meant I was bleeding internally. I was rushed over to surgery to figure out why I was in so much pain. I just wanted the baby to be ok, we waited 15 almost 16 months to get a positive pregnancy test. When I finally woke up from surgery was told they weren't able to save the baby as it was in my tube. I'm so numb right now I don't know what to feel. I know they can't save them when they are in the wrong spots but I wanted that baby so bad. So many questions race through my mind. (most of all… was it a girl?) I'm on heavy pain meds so i'll wait a couple of days till I re-evaluate what just happened.